break

one last exam today and then im officially on winter break. wooh! yet another semester down.

it's been a wild semester to say the least. but i think i've been the happiest. living in a condo with a good friend, sure we have our ups and downs, but im grateful for her.

and claire, always so much fun. even the most boring thing in the world is made absolutely intriguing and hilarious with her.

lost nicola though. :( more onto that on some other day when there is more energy to spend on that topic.

and eric. mm. what to say what to say. i love being in love? i love being in love with him? it's scary to feel like i feel. i dont even think that scary is the right word...let's go to a thesaurus:

alarming, bloodcurdling, chilling, creepy, eerie, hair-raising, hairy*, horrendous, horrifying, intimidating, shocking, spine-chilling, spooky, unnerving

um. i think... intimidating and unnerving are pretty descriptive.
he does make me mad though. i feel like he has the capacity to do much. but he's just consumed with the moment, what feels good is what he should do. and he's dangerous. and he is the guy i promised myself i'd never like, and so i fell in love. woe is me.

i worry about him all the time. i think the reason that we work so well is because we're in different cities. thats a little bit sad. but i think i'd just freak out completely if i saw his antics everyday.
does that mean that there is no future for us? i hope he changes. not for me, not because it's what i want, but because it's good for him.

ah too tired. im sorry. and there's so much on my mind i hope i dont forget all of it. gainesville tomorrow. so excited to see him!!!