date day

school starts monday.
about time, really.
i need to get my shit back together. i need all As. i need a job. i need to get life going.
went to breakfast early this morning with my dad.
it was really nice. i get kind of nervous around my dad now. i dont like it all. he used to be my best friend back in the day. we'd watch movies. talk. go fishing. but ever since hes had to go on the medicine thing, i feel like hes not the same. i dont know. my mom says we're so alike its scary. and thats really really scary. i dont know if i want to be exactly like him. but so breakfast. we talked about Key West. no Sailboat Steve this year. and that is juuusssssttt fine. i feel so silly when i think about that whole thing last summer. how ridiculous i was- yes, he was hot. mad wicked hot. still possibly the hottest thing i've ever seen, but he's mad old. 23. i'm 19. what more is there to possibly say? why is a guy his age interested in someone that is barely legal. i definitely dont look a day over 16, definite jail bait i guess.

after breakfast drove to Drews to catch a ride for the TPC (the players championship). we picked up his cousin Jeff, who is absolutely hilarious. i think he was flirting with me today. slightly akward, but his game is comical.

came home after it all. "cleaned" lol. riiiight.
starbucks with eric <3
its so difficult liking someone. my heart is saying, come on, open up, and my brain is like... back awaaaaaaay.
ugh. its so hard to break down guards when they've been around so long.

k. passing out.