explode.

i
am
frustrated.

i
want
to
be
the
person
i used to be.

i liked me a whole lot better, when i didnt know as many things.
when i wasnt as free.
when my time was consumed.
i liked it better when people were on my back about responding, and deadlines, and when i was working towards a goal, like getting into college.

why am i suddenly so uninspired?

its not that i'm uninspired.. i have a lot of ideas. i dream a lot.
i'm not motivated.
tomorrow.
i am going to run.
i'm going to run until my heart feels like it will burst from my chest. i need the pain, i need the gasping for air, to remind me that i am alive.